This morning I logged onto myfitnesspal and a little message popped up. "amazon75 has logged in for 5 days in a row". I started bawling.
For so long, I was beyond dedicated, my logging was just shy of compulsive. But the last few months I've gotten sidetracked. I've lost my motivation. I let myself "cheat" more and more. But I kept my count on MFP. Just 6 days ago I'd hit day 535. Even if I wasn't logging everything that I ate, I was at least getting onto the website. And this morning to know that I didn't even realize that I missed a day made me extremely sad.
Seeing that message this morning was reminder of just how far I've fallen. I don't know what it will take to get back on track. Maybe I need to really talk to someone. Maybe I should stay off the website until I'm ready to be devoted again. I really don't know but something has to change.
